| So this past Saturday Ms. Cat and I "defined the relationship," and determined that, after 4 months or so of trying to make it work, it was better to break it off. As much as I tried, there were some differences that could not be resolved. She wanted me to devote all of my time to her, and basically wouldn't let me see any other friends. If I did, I would feel really guilty, so I would end up going back to her later that night. A lot of my friends were pushing for me to end the relationship, even calling that day "D-Day". Well, though it was very hard, and though at times I didn't think we could have a clean break, the end was amicable. I don't think we will try and get back together, but you never know.
After a couple of days of freedom, in retrospect, I think I could have made the relationship better. Although it was not obvious during the relationship, I can say now that I learned a lot from her. She was always upfront about my weaknesses and challenged me to get better in those areas. She emphasized humility, and would keep me accountable to never act as if I were "better than her" (although I wish she would have been more gentle about it). I also gained much discipline from her as well. These are all things that I was able to glean, and I hope to be able to apply it to my future relationships.....like with Ms. Thesis.
I hope y'all don't take me to be some sort of a playa, or think that Ms. Thesis is some type of rebound. Actually, we have a lot of history together. I got to know her a little bit last summer, but it really took off last semester, when I had a clearer vision of my future. I felt that she was an integral part of it, so I asked her to consider a relationship. It was a struggle, I admit, because it was at that time I met Ms. Cat, who was very aggressive. Ms. Thesis acted as if there was no real rush. Well, now that Ms. Cat is sorta out of the picture, I want to resume talking with Ms. Thesis. Hopefully we will be able to build off of what we had. I don't want to put a timetable on it, but in one month I hope that our relationship will have gotten to the point where I will be able to comfortably present her to my peers, especially the ones in Denver. We have a lot to work out, but I think I've grown into a better man, one who understands the nature of relationships and the commitment they entail.
Plus, I also have Ms. Apps and Ms. Softball on the side in case I wanna "take a break" from Ms. Thesis. :)
This will be a good summer....... |
